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Artist | Student | Traditional Art
United States

Age: 17
Favorite Color: Teal? Mustard Yellow?? Clay rose???
Height: 5'4"
Favorite Sports: Track & Field
Favorite songs: I have favorite BANDS, and those are The Story So Far, The Shines, Brand New, Modest Mouse
Relation-ship status: Taken by a lovely, amazingly amazing boy!! :heart:
OCs: Blaire Cross, Azuli Ibiza, Grayson Bea, Shaun Love, Ramona Dallaire, Oliver Morissey


:iconecoking13: <-----RYPIE! He's an old school friend, I hardly see him anymore :(

:icon17bloodwolf: <-----SHE IS FUCKING AMAZING!!!! :heart:

Bipolar isn't an Adjective by genkistamps We're All Hypocrites by genkistamps Not an Excuse by genkistamps Mental illness isn't 'cool' by shadowlight-oak STAMP: Mental Illnesses by Mottenfest Not Automatically Good by SizzyBubbles DA Stamp - Sexualities are not by phantompanther ++ Mental Illness Awareness by dimruthien ++ Bipolar Disorder Awareness by dimruthien ++ Schizophrenia Awareness by dimruthien ++ Suicide Awarness Stamp by dimruthien ++ Self Injury Awarness 3 by dimruthien Mental Disorders... by snakeandladders Before You Claim To Have A Mental Illness by tansyuduri Stamp: Teens on birth control by Riza-Izumi Stamp: Sex ed not abstinence ed by Riza-Izumi To all those who want to have a mental illness: by funlakota Bipolar Stamp by Spikytastic Pro-Choice by ZOMBIExBite Bisexual Stamp by ShidoreDoblas Anxiety Awareness by jackalibis I'm Not Shy! by PigsTail Mental Illness by Flameshadow117
  • Mood: Lonely
  • Listening to: The Hills-The Weeknd
Oh yeah and that Max kid and I?

We're still doing shit.



  • Mood: Lonely
  • Listening to: The Hills-The Weeknd
Oh yeah and that Max kid and I?

We're still doing shit.

  • Mood: Uneasy
Damn I haven't written in forever.

I guess the goal is to update you all on the new installments of my life.

So far the biggest change has been breaking up with my boyfriend of nearly 2 years. 

Honestly, there was no sole issue that caused me to break up with him. It was an accumulation of annoyances and turn offs that eventually led to our breakup. Ultimately, I felt I couldn't grow anymore with him. He made me a MUCH better person, but I felt towards the end being with him would force me to regress, and I am NOT going back to who I used to be. I had to end it.

I also sort of developed a crush on someone else… Which caused a lot of problems. It was someone Nathan, my now ex, deemed his best friend: Max. For whatever reason Max felt different. I felt relaxed with him. Like he had his shit together, and especially towards the end I was fed up with Nathan's inability to get organized and pay attention. Oddly, I felt like Max actually treated me right. He defended me when Nathan got too handsy and he acknowledged my need for space away from someone, regardless of how much I liked them. Nathan was clingy and needy, and Max felt independent. Like everything that came from him was purely out of want, not out of some pathological need for unconditional love. I felt like I wouldn't be a babysitter. I needed my freedom back.

So I broke up with him and shit absolutely hit the fan. The rest of the group was fine but Nathan was a melodramatic mess. I can't really blame him; I was his first love. His first everything, really, and getting broken up with has to hurt. I remember how I was when Nic and I ended. I could definitely sympathize. But he was so manipulative about it. He'd text me, venting about his pain and anguish and I didn't know what to say other than "I'm sorry, but I'm not going back." He cut himself, threatened to kill himself, and I didn't know what to do. I felt even more smothered now that it was all over. 

So when Max asked me to hang out with him, I said yes.

And we smoked a lot of weed. And I wanted it badly, and he knew, or he figured enough to make a move and I went with it. He was a very different from Nathan. Much more gentle. Far more apprehensive, which I found odd as he had much more experience than Nathan did. And even though I was high out of my mind, I knew what I was doing. I wanted to feel guilty, I really did, but I was angry and I wanted to feel free and alive. He said I was the best he'd ever had. 

I just had to open my big mouth and tell Laticia though. Long story short, she told Nathan, who proceeded to show up at Max's house and nearly beat the living shit out of him. I hid but he found me and I swear I've never seen someone so angry before. He kept pushing him and screaming "she's mine she's mine she's my girl" and I was terrified. And I was angry. Angry that he thought he had any right to be upset after we'd broken up. I wasn't "his" anymore; I was my own and I made my own choices with my own body and I wanted to rip him apart for still trying to take away my freedom after I'd cut the tie. He told my parents what I did and they got so mad at me. My dad wouldn't even look at me for three days. I apologized to Nathan the day after, and I meant everything I said to him. I had no real intention of hurting him, and i was sorry I did it so selfishly. As angry as I was, pain was not my goal.

Now we're all friends again. Well, almost. Nathan refuses to speak to Max, and Max never really considered Nathan a close friend to begin with. Nathan is convinced that my apology and my kindness towards him means I want him back, but I don't. I'm struggling to find the balance between kindness and firmness, because it feels like I have to choose between him thinking I want him back and him thinking I hate him. I hate to se him sad but I don't want to make myself unhappy by dating him again. I'd just end up completely resenting him and beg cruel and he doesn't deserve that.

But I can't say I regret it. I still hang with Max, smoke with him, chill. I just want to have fun. I've wasted three years of my life being depressed and afraid. I deserve to have some fucking fun.
  • Mood: Daily Needs
[/] Achluophobia - Fear of darkness. (Depends where I am.)
[x]Acrophobia - Fear of heights.
[/]Aerophobia - Fear of flying.
[ ] Agliophobia - Fear of pain.  
[ ] Agoraphobia - Fear of open spaces or crowds. 
[ ] Aichmophobia - Fear of needles or pointed objects.
[ ] Amaxophobia - Fear of riding in a car.
[ ] Androphobia - Fear of men.  
[ ] Anginophobia - Fear of angina or choking. 
[ ] Anthrophobia - Fear of flowers. 
[ ] Anthropophobia - Fear of people or society.  
[ ] Aphenphosmphobia - Fear of being touched. 
[ ] Arachnophobia - Fear of spiders. 
[ ] Arithmophobia - Fear of numbers. 
[ ] Astraphobia - Fear of thunder and lightning.  
[ ] Ataxophobia - Fear of disorder or untidiness. 
[ ]Atelophobia - Fear of imperfection. 
[ ]Atychiphobia - Fear of failure.
[ ] Autophobia - Fear of being alone.  

[ ] Bacteriophobia - Fear of bacteria.
[ ] Barophobia - Fear of gravity. 
[ ] Bathmophobia - Fear of stairs or steep slopes. 
[ ] Batrachophobia - Fear of amphibians.
[ ] Belonephobia - Fear of pins and needles. 
[ ] Bibliophobia - Fear of books. 
[ ] Botanophobia - Fear of plants.
[ ] Cacophobia - Fear of ugliness. 
[x] Catagelophobia - Fear of being ridiculed.
[ ] Catoptrophobia - Fear of mirrors.
[ ] Chionophobia - Fear of snow.  
[ ] Chromophobia - Fear of colours.
[ ] Chronomentrophobia - Fear of clocks. 
[ ]Claustrophobia - Fear of confined spaces.  
[ ]Coulrophobia - Fear of clowns. 
[ ]Cyberphobia - Fear of computers.  
[ ]Cynophobia - Fear of dogs.
[ ]Dendrophobia - Fear of trees.
[ ]Dentophobia - Fear of dentists.
[ ]Domatophobia - Fear of houses.
[ ]Dystychiphobia - Fear of accidents. 
[ ]Ecophobia - Fear of the home. 
[ ]Elurophobia - Fear of cats.
[ ]Entomophobia - Fear of insects. 
[ ]Ephebiphobia - Fear of teenagers.
[ ]Equinophobia - Fear of horses. 

[ ]Gamophobia - Fear of marriage. 
[ ]Genuphobia - Fear of knees. 
[ ]Glossophobia - Fear of speaking in public.  
[ ]Gynophobia - Fear of women. 
[ ]Heliophobia - Fear of the sun.
[ ]Hemophobia - Fear of blood. 
[ ]Herpetophobia - Fear of reptiles.   
[ ]Hippopotomonstrosesquipedaliophobia – Fear of long words. 
[ ]Histiminaphobia – Fear of allergies.
[ ]Homophobia - Fear of homosexuals. 
[ ]Hydrophobia - Fear of water.
[ ]Hypochonria - Fear of illness. 
[ ]Iatrophobia - Fear of doctors. 
[ ]Insectophobia - Fear of insects. 
[ ]Koinoniphobia - Fear of rooms.
[ ]Leukophobia - Fear of the color white.
[ ]Lilapsophobia - Fear of tornadoes and hurricanes. 
[]Lockiophobia - Fear of childbirth.  

[ ]Mageirocophobia - Fear of cooking.
[ ]Megalophobia - Fear of large things. 
[ ]Melanophobia - Fear of the color black.
[ ]Metamfiezomaiophobia - Fear of mimes. 
[ ]Microphobia - Fear of small things.
[ ]Mysophobia - Fear of dirt and germs.
[ ]Necrophobia - Fear of death or dead things. 
[ ]Noctiphobia - Fear of the night.  
[ ]Nosocomephobia - Fear of hospitals.  
[ ]Nyctophobia - Fear of the dark. 
[x]Obesophobia - Fear of gaining weight.  
[]Octophobia - Fear of the figure 8.
[]Ombrophobia - Fear of rain.
[ ]Ophidiophobia - Fear of snakes. 
[ ]Ornithophobia - Fear of birds.   

[ ]Pantophobia – Fear of everything.  
[ ]Papyrophobia - Fear of paper.
[x]Pathophobia - Fear of disease.
[ ]Pedophobia - Fear of children.
[ ]Philophobia - Fear of love.
[ ]Phobophobia - Fear of phobias.  
[ ]Podophobia - Fear of feet. 
[ ]Porphyrophobia - Fear of the color purple. 
[ ]Pteridophobia - Fear of ferns.
[ ]Pteromerhanophobia - Fear of flying.
[ ]Pyrophobia - Fear of fire.
[ ]Scolionophobia - Fear of school.
[ ]Selenophobia - Fear of the moon.
[x]Sociophobia - Fear of social evaluation.
[ ]Somniphobia - Fear of sleep. 
[ ]Tachophobia - Fear of speed. 
[ ]Technophobia - Fear of technology.
[ ]Tonitrophobia - Fear of thunder.
[ ]Trypanophobia - Fear of needles / injections. 
[ ]Venustraphobia - Fear of beautiful women.
[ ]Verminophobia - Fear of germs.
[ ]Wiccaphobia - Fear of witches and witchcraft.
[ ]Xenophobia - Fear of strangers or foreigners. 
[ ]Zoophobia - Fear of animals.

Total : 6

<10: Normal
10-20: Calm down
20-30: You might need some help
30-40: You are a nervous wreck.
>40: If I were you, I'd see a specialist...
  • Mood: Daily Needs
How long have you been on DeviantArt ?

Um I think it's been like three years, maybe four?

What does your username mean?

I really liked neon…

Describe yourself in three words.

Weird, weird, and kinda hot :D

Are you left or right handed?

Right :)

What was your first deviation?

Oh it was a picture of some fairy house I made the summer before joining, lol. That was on my first DA account though

What is your favourite type of art to create?

Probably traditional, like with colored pencils and graphite

If you could instantly master a different art style, what would it be?

Dance I guess lol

What was your first favourite?

Oh gosh I dunno

What type of art do you tend to favourite the most?

Drawings of people, mostly

Who is your all-time favourite deviant artist?

That's so hard, I really don't know

If you could meet anyone on DeviantArt in person, who would it be?

Idk :shrug:

How has a fellow deviant impacted your life?

Yeah, one… Maybe not in the most positive way, but they did.

What are your preferred tools to create art?

Paper, pencil, colored pencils, markers (in moderation), sometimes paint

What is the most inspirational place for you to create art?

My bed tbh ^^;

What is your favourite DeviantArt memory?

Idk lol :XD:

  • Mood: Anxious
Your Boy Side

[ ] You love hoodies. 
[x] You love jeans. (They're all I wear) 
[ ] Dogs are better than cats. (Oh so we're gendering animals now :grump:)
[ ] It's hilarious when people get hurt. 
[ ] You've played with/against boys on a team. 
[ ] Shopping is torture. 
[ ] Sad movies suck. 
[x] You own an X-Box. (That doesn't mean I use it though)
[ ] Played with Hotwheels cars as a kid. 
[ ] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
[x] You own a DS, PS2 or Sega. 
[ ] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers. 
[ ] You watch sports on TV. 
[x] Gory movies are cool. (If the gore is reasonable and well used)
[ ] You go to your dad for advice. 
[ ] You own like a trillion baseball caps. 
[ ] You like going to football games. 
[ ] You used to/do collect baseball cards. 
[ ] Baggy pants are cool to wear.
[x] It's kinda weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people. 
[x] Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors. 
[x] You love to go crazy and not care what people think. 
[ ] Sports are fun. 
[ ] Talk with food in your mouth. 

Total = 7

Your Girl Side

[ ] You wear lip gloss. 
[ ] You love to shop. 
[ ] You wear eyeliner. 
[x] You have some of the same shirts in different colors. 
[ ] You wear the color pink. 
[x] Go to your mom for advice.
[x] You consider cheerleading a sport. (What about this is feminine? The mention of cheerleaders? Oh please)
[ ] You hate wearing the color black. 
[ ] You like hanging out at the mall.
[ ] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures. 
[x] You like wearing jewelry. 
[ ] Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe. 
[ ]Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies. 
[ ] You don't like the movie Star Wars. 
[x] You are/were in cheerleading, gymnastics or dance. 
[x] It takes you around 1 hour to shower, get dressed, and put on make-up and accessories (about an hour, probably less)
[ ] You smile a lot more than you should. (I'm sorry I didn't realize there was a limit on happiness????)
[ ] You have more than 10 pairs of shoes. 
[x] You care about what you look like. (God forbid I don't want to look like I live in a garbage can) 
[ ] You like wearing dresses when you can. 
[x] You like wearing body spray/perfume/cologne. 
[x] Used to play with dolls as little kid. 
[ ] Like putting make-up on someone else for the joy of it. 
[ ] Like taking pictures of yourself with your cell phone/camera when you're bored. (Do you realize how many stupid teenage boys do this??)

Total = 9

Girl = 9
Boy = 7

So I guess I'm pretty balanced? However I think this is one stupid ass, rather offensive quiz. Fuck that binary!

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pinkythepink Featured By Owner Aug 28, 2015  Professional Artisan Crafter
:love: Thank you for the favorites, it really means ever so much to me that you enjoy my artwork! I invite you to add me to your watch so that you can see all the future beaded and stitched pieces I have planned! :blowkiss: Just think of the sparkles... :squee:
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Thanks for the fave 
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Thank you for the fave(s)! :tighthug: 
EcoKing13 Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Hey I got a date for the Writers Guild event. It's on March 11th, around 3:30. You think you can make it?
Dayglo14 Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
3:30? And it's at your school?
EcoKing13 Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Dayglo14 Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
Fuck idk if I can go... My school lets out at 3:15... If I went I'd probably be late to it
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moulinrougegirl77 Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2014
happy birthday
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