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Jenna
Artist | Student | Traditional Art
United States
PLEASE STOP THANKING ME FOR FAVORITING YOUR ART. IT'S BECOMING IRRITATING. JUST MAKE MORE OF IT INSTEAD, OK? OK. GLAD WE HAD THIS TALK.

Age: 17
Favorite Color: Teal? Mustard Yellow?? Clay rose???
Height: 5'4"
Favorite Sports: Track & Field
Favorite songs: I have favorite BANDS, and those are The Story So Far, The Shines, Brand New, Modest Mouse
Relation-ship status: Taken by a lovely, amazingly amazing boy!! :heart:
OCs: Blaire Cross, Azuli Ibiza, Grayson Bea, Shaun Love, Ramona Dallaire, Oliver Morissey

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:iconneonfreeon: <-----JULES IS MY FRAN FOR LIFE GO LOOK AT HER STUFF YES FRAN

:iconecoking13: <-----RYPIE! He's an old school friend, I hardly see him anymore :(

:icon17bloodwolf: <-----SHE IS FUCKING AMAZING!!!! :heart:

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Interests
Sweet Jesus I haven't posted a journal in a while.

Or my art for that matter. I've been so focused on other things I don't really have a lot of time for the DA anymore. To be honest, I don't really feel that connected to the DA community anymore, but that's probably because I took a yearlong hiatus because my brain basically shit itself and dropped off the planet (it's mostly back now lol).

ANYWAYS so update I guess? I'm sure you all are just DYING to hear about all the fun I've been having *rolls eyes*
I'm very involved in the pagan/witchcraft community, my altar is absolutely beautiful (maybe I'll post some photos on here) and I'm really enjoying making all my little crafts and projects that come along with my new connection with nature. 

Speaking of connecting with nature, I'm basically friends with some really weird stoners and they'r cool I guess. Not always the brightest, but they're nice and I like hanging out with them. And you're probably wondering; if she hangs out with stoners, does' that make HER a stoner? I mean, I guess, but honestly I'm not super big on smoking. Like it's ok, I'll do it, but I prefer other things. For me, it just makes me really paranoid the next day and I feel like my IQ has lowered and yeah. It's not that fun. And yes, clearly that means I have smoked weed. OHMYGOSHJENNATHATCOULDKILLYOU YOUCOULDLIKEOVERDOSEANDGOCRAZY no child. No. In comparison to alcohol, which is perfectly legal, weed is healthy. In comparison to regular old air it isn't, but as far as DRUGS go, it's pretty fucking safe. So hush.

If you caught on, I said weed isn't my favorite thing to do? So what is? Painkillers. I fucking love painkillers. I like benzos too (panic attack pills), but opioid painkillers are my shit. They make you feel like you're floating in warm water, without a care in the world. You're happy, in love with life and the world, you feel inspired, you have energy. But not that crazy coke type energy. Gentle energy that lets you just go and go and focus.

Now you're worried. Holy shit, she's actually doing drugs. But this is the thing; I don't do any of these things more than your average person drinks. My mom has a martini at least once a week but we don't call her an alcoholic, do we? I'm not an addict. I'm not dependent. I use recreationally, when it's a weekend and I don't have any homework on my plate. I don't drive under the influence, and I don't see to other people. I don't try to encourage others to try these drugs, and I don't try to kid myself that I'm not playing with fire. I am. I know I am. I've worked very hard to keep my addictive tendencies in check, and I'm doing very well. I've had practice, thanks to my prior problems with self harm. I'm being a safe as I possibly can be, so don't come yelling at me. I don't care, and I won't listen.  

And in other news, I'm 18 now hoes :D

Activity


Sweet Jesus I haven't posted a journal in a while.

Or my art for that matter. I've been so focused on other things I don't really have a lot of time for the DA anymore. To be honest, I don't really feel that connected to the DA community anymore, but that's probably because I took a yearlong hiatus because my brain basically shit itself and dropped off the planet (it's mostly back now lol).

ANYWAYS so update I guess? I'm sure you all are just DYING to hear about all the fun I've been having *rolls eyes*
I'm very involved in the pagan/witchcraft community, my altar is absolutely beautiful (maybe I'll post some photos on here) and I'm really enjoying making all my little crafts and projects that come along with my new connection with nature. 

Speaking of connecting with nature, I'm basically friends with some really weird stoners and they'r cool I guess. Not always the brightest, but they're nice and I like hanging out with them. And you're probably wondering; if she hangs out with stoners, does' that make HER a stoner? I mean, I guess, but honestly I'm not super big on smoking. Like it's ok, I'll do it, but I prefer other things. For me, it just makes me really paranoid the next day and I feel like my IQ has lowered and yeah. It's not that fun. And yes, clearly that means I have smoked weed. OHMYGOSHJENNATHATCOULDKILLYOU YOUCOULDLIKEOVERDOSEANDGOCRAZY no child. No. In comparison to alcohol, which is perfectly legal, weed is healthy. In comparison to regular old air it isn't, but as far as DRUGS go, it's pretty fucking safe. So hush.

If you caught on, I said weed isn't my favorite thing to do? So what is? Painkillers. I fucking love painkillers. I like benzos too (panic attack pills), but opioid painkillers are my shit. They make you feel like you're floating in warm water, without a care in the world. You're happy, in love with life and the world, you feel inspired, you have energy. But not that crazy coke type energy. Gentle energy that lets you just go and go and focus.

Now you're worried. Holy shit, she's actually doing drugs. But this is the thing; I don't do any of these things more than your average person drinks. My mom has a martini at least once a week but we don't call her an alcoholic, do we? I'm not an addict. I'm not dependent. I use recreationally, when it's a weekend and I don't have any homework on my plate. I don't drive under the influence, and I don't see to other people. I don't try to encourage others to try these drugs, and I don't try to kid myself that I'm not playing with fire. I am. I know I am. I've worked very hard to keep my addictive tendencies in check, and I'm doing very well. I've had practice, thanks to my prior problems with self harm. I'm being a safe as I possibly can be, so don't come yelling at me. I don't care, and I won't listen.  

And in other news, I'm 18 now hoes :D
  • Watching: American Crime
FIRE

[ ] You have a short temper.
[x] You often act on your emotions without thinking first. (Kinda depends but I mean I guess)
[ ] You are very competitive. 
[ ] You like to play with fire. 
[ ] You are not a strong swimmer or you can't swim at all. 
[ ] You prefer warm weather over cold weather.
[ ] You often lose control over yourself.
[x] You can be quite reckless. (Basically just with drugs)
[ ] You sometimes hurt people without realizing it. 
[ ] People have often called you insane. (Damn lowkey ableism)

Total: 2


WATER

[x] You have a calm, laid-back personality. (I think?? Depends)
[x] You like to go to the beach.
[x] You rarely get angry.
[x] When you do get angry, you know how to control it. (For the most part lol)
[ ] You think before you act.
[x] You are good at breaking up fights.
[x] You are a good swimmer. 
[x] You like the rain.
[ ] You can stay calm in stressful situations. 
[x] You are very generous. 

Total: 8


EARTH

[ ] You are physically strong. 
[x] You have a close connection with nature.
[x] You don't mind getting dirty.
[x] You form strong opinions on issues that concern you.
[ ] You could easily survive in the wild. (I'd like to say yes but tbh I'd die so fast)
[x] You care about the environment. 
[ ] You can easily focus on your work without getting distracted.
[ ] You rarely get depressed.
[ ] You aren't afraid of anything.
[ ] You prefer to have a strict set of rules. 
Total: 4 (Damn this made earth seem like a real square)


AIR

[x] You have a free spirit.
[ ] You hate rules.
[x] You prefer to be out in the open rather than in small, enclosed spaces.
[x] You hate to be restrained.
[x] You are very independent and outgoing. (I'm like a socially anxious introvert that word-vomits)
[x] You are quite intelligent. (I'd consider myself so yeah) 
[ ] You tend to be impatient.
[x] You are easily distracted.
[x] You can sometimes be hyperactive and/or annoying.
[x] You wish you could fly.

Total: 8


DARKNESS

[x] You spend most of your time alone.
[ ] You prefer nighttime over daytime.
[ ] You like creepy things.
[ ] You like to play tricks on people.
[ ] Black is your favorite colour/color. 
[ ] You prefer the villains over the heroes in movies, TV shows, videogames, etc.
[ ] You don't talk much.
[ ] You are atheist. (tf does that have to do with this?
[ ] You don't mind watching scary movies.
[ ] You love to break the rules. (Woah edgy)

Total: 1


LIGHT

[x] You are very polite. 
[x] You are spiritual. 
[x] When someone is in trouble, you never hesitate to help them. 
[ ] You believe everything you see or hear.
[x] You are afraid of the dark. 
[x] You hate violence.
[x] You hope for world peace.
[ ] You are generally a happy person.
[ ] Everyone loves to be around you.
[ ] You always follow the rules.

Total: 6

Water/air so that means I am mist??
  • Listening to: The Hills-The Weeknd
Oh yeah and that Max kid and I?

We're still doing shit.

#winning
Damn I haven't written in forever.

I guess the goal is to update you all on the new installments of my life.

So far the biggest change has been breaking up with my boyfriend of nearly 2 years. 

Honestly, there was no sole issue that caused me to break up with him. It was an accumulation of annoyances and turn offs that eventually led to our breakup. Ultimately, I felt I couldn't grow anymore with him. He made me a MUCH better person, but I felt towards the end being with him would force me to regress, and I am NOT going back to who I used to be. I had to end it.

I also sort of developed a crush on someone else… Which caused a lot of problems. It was someone Nathan, my now ex, deemed his best friend: Max. For whatever reason Max felt different. I felt relaxed with him. Like he had his shit together, and especially towards the end I was fed up with Nathan's inability to get organized and pay attention. Oddly, I felt like Max actually treated me right. He defended me when Nathan got too handsy and he acknowledged my need for space away from someone, regardless of how much I liked them. Nathan was clingy and needy, and Max felt independent. Like everything that came from him was purely out of want, not out of some pathological need for unconditional love. I felt like I wouldn't be a babysitter. I needed my freedom back.

So I broke up with him and shit absolutely hit the fan. The rest of the group was fine but Nathan was a melodramatic mess. I can't really blame him; I was his first love. His first everything, really, and getting broken up with has to hurt. I remember how I was when Nic and I ended. I could definitely sympathize. But he was so manipulative about it. He'd text me, venting about his pain and anguish and I didn't know what to say other than "I'm sorry, but I'm not going back." He cut himself, threatened to kill himself, and I didn't know what to do. I felt even more smothered now that it was all over. 

So when Max asked me to hang out with him, I said yes.

And we smoked a lot of weed. And I wanted it badly, and he knew, or he figured enough to make a move and I went with it. He was a very different from Nathan. Much more gentle. Far more apprehensive, which I found odd as he had much more experience than Nathan did. And even though I was high out of my mind, I knew what I was doing. I wanted to feel guilty, I really did, but I was angry and I wanted to feel free and alive. He said I was the best he'd ever had. 

I just had to open my big mouth and tell Laticia though. Long story short, she told Nathan, who proceeded to show up at Max's house and nearly beat the living shit out of him. I hid but he found me and I swear I've never seen someone so angry before. He kept pushing him and screaming "she's mine she's mine she's my girl" and I was terrified. And I was angry. Angry that he thought he had any right to be upset after we'd broken up. I wasn't "his" anymore; I was my own and I made my own choices with my own body and I wanted to rip him apart for still trying to take away my freedom after I'd cut the tie. He told my parents what I did and they got so mad at me. My dad wouldn't even look at me for three days. I apologized to Nathan the day after, and I meant everything I said to him. I had no real intention of hurting him, and i was sorry I did it so selfishly. As angry as I was, pain was not my goal.

Now we're all friends again. Well, almost. Nathan refuses to speak to Max, and Max never really considered Nathan a close friend to begin with. Nathan is convinced that my apology and my kindness towards him means I want him back, but I don't. I'm struggling to find the balance between kindness and firmness, because it feels like I have to choose between him thinking I want him back and him thinking I hate him. I hate to se him sad but I don't want to make myself unhappy by dating him again. I'd just end up completely resenting him and beg cruel and he doesn't deserve that.

But I can't say I regret it. I still hang with Max, smoke with him, chill. I just want to have fun. I've wasted three years of my life being depressed and afraid. I deserve to have some fucking fun.
[/] Achluophobia - Fear of darkness. (Depends where I am.)
[x]Acrophobia - Fear of heights.
[/]Aerophobia - Fear of flying.
[ ] Agliophobia - Fear of pain.  
[ ] Agoraphobia - Fear of open spaces or crowds. 
[ ] Aichmophobia - Fear of needles or pointed objects.
[ ] Amaxophobia - Fear of riding in a car.
[ ] Androphobia - Fear of men.  
[ ] Anginophobia - Fear of angina or choking. 
[ ] Anthrophobia - Fear of flowers. 
[ ] Anthropophobia - Fear of people or society.  
[ ] Aphenphosmphobia - Fear of being touched. 
[ ] Arachnophobia - Fear of spiders. 
[ ] Arithmophobia - Fear of numbers. 
[ ] Astraphobia - Fear of thunder and lightning.  
[ ] Ataxophobia - Fear of disorder or untidiness. 
[ ]Atelophobia - Fear of imperfection. 
[ ]Atychiphobia - Fear of failure.
[ ] Autophobia - Fear of being alone.  
TOTAL : 2

*B-E*
[ ] Bacteriophobia - Fear of bacteria.
[ ] Barophobia - Fear of gravity. 
[ ] Bathmophobia - Fear of stairs or steep slopes. 
[ ] Batrachophobia - Fear of amphibians.
[ ] Belonephobia - Fear of pins and needles. 
[ ] Bibliophobia - Fear of books. 
[ ] Botanophobia - Fear of plants.
[ ] Cacophobia - Fear of ugliness. 
[x] Catagelophobia - Fear of being ridiculed.
[ ] Catoptrophobia - Fear of mirrors.
[ ] Chionophobia - Fear of snow.  
[ ] Chromophobia - Fear of colours.
[ ] Chronomentrophobia - Fear of clocks. 
[ ]Claustrophobia - Fear of confined spaces.  
[ ]Coulrophobia - Fear of clowns. 
[ ]Cyberphobia - Fear of computers.  
[ ]Cynophobia - Fear of dogs.
[ ]Dendrophobia - Fear of trees.
[ ]Dentophobia - Fear of dentists.
[ ]Domatophobia - Fear of houses.
[ ]Dystychiphobia - Fear of accidents. 
[ ]Ecophobia - Fear of the home. 
[ ]Elurophobia - Fear of cats.
[ ]Entomophobia - Fear of insects. 
[ ]Ephebiphobia - Fear of teenagers.
[ ]Equinophobia - Fear of horses. 
TOTAL : 3

*G-L*
[ ]Gamophobia - Fear of marriage. 
[ ]Genuphobia - Fear of knees. 
[ ]Glossophobia - Fear of speaking in public.  
[ ]Gynophobia - Fear of women. 
[ ]Heliophobia - Fear of the sun.
[ ]Hemophobia - Fear of blood. 
[ ]Herpetophobia - Fear of reptiles.   
[ ]Hippopotomonstrosesquipedaliophobia – Fear of long words. 
[ ]Histiminaphobia – Fear of allergies.
[ ]Homophobia - Fear of homosexuals. 
[ ]Hydrophobia - Fear of water.
[ ]Hypochonria - Fear of illness. 
[ ]Iatrophobia - Fear of doctors. 
[ ]Insectophobia - Fear of insects. 
[ ]Koinoniphobia - Fear of rooms.
[ ]Leukophobia - Fear of the color white.
[ ]Lilapsophobia - Fear of tornadoes and hurricanes. 
[]Lockiophobia - Fear of childbirth.  
TOTAL : 3

*M-O*
[ ]Mageirocophobia - Fear of cooking.
[ ]Megalophobia - Fear of large things. 
[ ]Melanophobia - Fear of the color black.
[ ]Metamfiezomaiophobia - Fear of mimes. 
[ ]Microphobia - Fear of small things.
[ ]Mysophobia - Fear of dirt and germs.
[ ]Necrophobia - Fear of death or dead things. 
[ ]Noctiphobia - Fear of the night.  
[ ]Nosocomephobia - Fear of hospitals.  
[ ]Nyctophobia - Fear of the dark. 
[x]Obesophobia - Fear of gaining weight.  
[]Octophobia - Fear of the figure 8.
[]Ombrophobia - Fear of rain.
[ ]Ophidiophobia - Fear of snakes. 
[ ]Ornithophobia - Fear of birds.   
TOTAL : 4

*P-Z*
[ ]Pantophobia – Fear of everything.  
[ ]Papyrophobia - Fear of paper.
[x]Pathophobia - Fear of disease.
[ ]Pedophobia - Fear of children.
[ ]Philophobia - Fear of love.
[ ]Phobophobia - Fear of phobias.  
[ ]Podophobia - Fear of feet. 
[ ]Porphyrophobia - Fear of the color purple. 
[ ]Pteridophobia - Fear of ferns.
[ ]Pteromerhanophobia - Fear of flying.
[ ]Pyrophobia - Fear of fire.
[ ]Scolionophobia - Fear of school.
[ ]Selenophobia - Fear of the moon.
[x]Sociophobia - Fear of social evaluation.
[ ]Somniphobia - Fear of sleep. 
[ ]Tachophobia - Fear of speed. 
[ ]Technophobia - Fear of technology.
[ ]Tonitrophobia - Fear of thunder.
[ ]Trypanophobia - Fear of needles / injections. 
[ ]Venustraphobia - Fear of beautiful women.
[ ]Verminophobia - Fear of germs.
[ ]Wiccaphobia - Fear of witches and witchcraft.
[ ]Xenophobia - Fear of strangers or foreigners. 
[ ]Zoophobia - Fear of animals.
TOTAL: 6


Total : 6




<10: Normal
10-20: Calm down
20-30: You might need some help
30-40: You are a nervous wreck.
>40: If I were you, I'd see a specialist...

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neonfreeon Featured By Owner Jan 31, 2016  Student Photographer
Jennnnnnnnnnnnnnna!!!! I miss u
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Dayglo14 Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2016  Student Traditional Artist
Ew nerd.


Jk I miss you too
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neonfreeon Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2016  Student Photographer
we should hang out!!!!!!!
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Dayglo14 Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2016  Student Traditional Artist
When?????
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pinkythepink Featured By Owner Aug 28, 2015  Professional Artisan Crafter
:love: Thank you for the favorites, it really means ever so much to me that you enjoy my artwork! I invite you to add me to your watch so that you can see all the future beaded and stitched pieces I have planned! :blowkiss: Just think of the sparkles... :squee:
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BloodshotInk Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2014
Thanks for the fave 
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ithaswhatitisnt Featured By Owner May 15, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you for the fave(s)! :tighthug: 
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EcoKing13 Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Hey I got a date for the Writers Guild event. It's on March 11th, around 3:30. You think you can make it?
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Dayglo14 Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
3:30? And it's at your school?
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EcoKing13 Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Yep
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