The Jenna psychiatric chronicles continue
Could this be the end of our story? Our heroine finds out in a recent psychiatric visit that she could be suffering from *pause for effect* BIPOLAR DISORDER
(?!) *GASP!* What will become of our beloved main character next?! Will it be a fight with her parents? Multiple health forms? The implementation of Seroquel or other mood stabilizers and anticonvulsants?! Tune in next week and find out!
All joking aside, I went in to see my psychiatrist on Tuesday and through much discussion (and many questions about my sleep patterns), she seems pretty sure (like a solid 90% it seems) that I have some sort of Bipolar Spectrum disorder. It doesn't sound like I've ever been completely manic, but I've had hypomanic episodes (actually just finished-maybe finished-one like this week but I think it's tapered into a mixed episode because my mood is WTF). So it's possible that I have Bipolar II or Bipolar NOS. But because I'm a little fuzzy on the whole Bipolar I criteria (like do I need one full manic episode, is that the only way, because I've read mixed episodes also qualify BP I), I'll have to talk to her some more.
My mood and behavior has been batshit weird as all motherfuck I don't even know. My brain is fuzzy as fuck and busy and not so busy like idk man but it's weird and I feel like shit but I also feel great. I had a catatonic episode (and now I can actually say that because psych lady confirmed it) during therapy a couple weeks ago because I was even more disorganized and distractible than I am now? I have this huge impulse to go take a bunch of motrin but that's a bad idea. I'd also like to drink. A lot. But no
Bad idea. Of course all this then explains the catatonia and possible psychosis, but I never got to mention my anxiety which is a bummer. I DO get to chat again so I'M MAKING A LIST TO BRING *skips about*
Wish me luck I guess? They better not fuck up my meds because WOW I don't wanna end up any more screwy than I already am