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Jenna
Artist | Student | Traditional Art
United States
PLEASE STOP THANKING ME FOR FAVORITING YOUR ART. IT'S BECOMING IRRITATING. JUST MAKE MORE OF IT INSTEAD, OK? OK. GLAD WE HAD THIS TALK.

Age: 16
Favorite Color: Purple? Blue? Teal? Clay rose? Charcoal grey??
Height: 5'4"
Favorite Sports: Track & Field
Favorite songs: I have favorite ALBUMS and those are Blink-182 and Neighborhoods (also a Blink-182 album)
Relation-ship status: Taken by a lovely, amazingly amazing boy!! :heart:
OCs: Blaire Cross, Azuli Ibiza, Grayson Bea, Shaun Love, Ramona Dallaire, Oliver Morissey

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:iconneonfreeon: <-----JULES IS MY FRAN FOR LIFE GO LOOK AT HER STUFF YES FRAN

:iconecoking13: <-----RYPIE! He's an old school friend, I hardly see him anymore :(

:icon17bloodwolf: <-----SHE IS FUCKING AMAZING!!!! :heart:

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Bipolar isn't an Adjective by genkistamps We're All Hypocrites by genkistamps Not an Excuse by genkistamps Mental illness isn't "cool" by shadowlight-oak STAMP: Mental Illnesses by Mottenfest Not Automatically Good by SizzyBubbles DA Stamp - Sexualities are not by phantompanther ++ Mental Illness Awareness by dimruthien ++ Bipolar Disorder Awareness by dimruthien ++ Schizophrenia Awareness by dimruthien ++ Suicide Awarness Stamp by dimruthien ++ Self Injury Awarness 3 by dimruthien Mental Disorders... by snakeandladders Before You Claim To Have A Mental Illness by tansyuduri Stamp: Teens on birth control by Riza-Izumi Stamp: Sex ed not abstinence ed by Riza-Izumi To all those who want to have a mental illness: by funlakota Bipolar Stamp by Spikytastic Pro-Choice by ZOMBIExBite Bisexual Stamp by ShidoreDoblas Anxiety Awareness by jackalibis I'm Not Shy! by PigsTail Mental Illness by Flameshadow117
Interests
  • Mood: Neutral
RULE 1. You can only say Guilty or Innocent.
RULE 2. You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks!
Now, here's what you're supposed to do!
Copy and paste this into your journal, delete my answers, type in your answers and tag 20 of your friends to answer this. Then see what happens.

1. Asked someone to marry you?
Innocent

2. Kissed one of your friends?
Guilty

3. Danced on a table in a bar?
Innocent

4. Ever told a lie?
Guilty

5. Had feelings for someone whom you can't have?
Guilty

6. Ever kissed someone of the same sex?
Guilty

7. Kissed a picture?
Innocent

8. Slept in until 5 PM
Innocent

9. Fallen asleep at work/school?
Guilty

10. Held a snake?
Guilty

11. Been suspended from school?
Innocent

12. Worked at a fast food chain/restaurant?
Innocent

13. Stolen something?
Guilty

14. Been fired from a job?
Innocent

15. Done something you regret?
Guilty

16. Laughed until something you were drinking came out of your nose?
Innocent

17. Caught a snowflake on your tongue?
Guilty

18. Kissed in the rain?
Guilty

19. Sat on a roof top?
Guilty

20. Kissed someone you shouldn't?
Guilty

21. Sang in the shower?
Guilty

22. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?
Guilty

23. Shaved your head?
Innocent

24. Slept naked?
Innocent

25. Had a boxing membership?
Innocent

26. Made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
Guilty

27. Been in a band?
Innocent

28. Shot a gun?
Innocent

29. Donated Blood?
Innocent (Though I'd love to)

30. Eaten alligator meat?
Innocent

31. Eaten cheesecake?
Guilty

32. Still love someone you shouldn't?
Innocent

33. Have/had a tattoo?
Innocent (How can some "have had" a tattoo?)

34. Liked someone, but will never tell who?
Innocent

35. Been too honest?
Guilty

36. Ruined a surprise?
Guilty
 
37. Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated that you can't walk afterwards?
Innocent

38. Erased someone in your friends list?
Guilty

39. Dressed in a woman's clothes (if you're a guy) or man's clothes (if you're a girl)?
Guilty

40. Joined a pageant?
Innocent

41. Been told that you're handsome or beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said?
Guilty

42. Still have communication w/ your ex?
Guilty

43. Cheated on someone?
Innocent

44. Get totally drunk one night and you have an important exam tomorrow morning?
Innocent

45. A total stranger treated you by paying your fare?
Innocent

46. Get totally angry that you cried so hard?
Guilty

47. Tried to stay away from someone for their own good?
Innocent

48. Thought about suicide?
Guilty

49. Thought about murder?
Guilty

50. How about Mass Murder?
Guilty

51. RODE IN A STRANGER'S VEHICLE?
Guilty

52. Stalked someone?
Innocent

53. Had a girlfriend/boyfriend
Guilty

Activity


  • Mood: Neutral
RULE 1. You can only say Guilty or Innocent.
RULE 2. You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks!
Now, here's what you're supposed to do!
Copy and paste this into your journal, delete my answers, type in your answers and tag 20 of your friends to answer this. Then see what happens.

1. Asked someone to marry you?
Innocent

2. Kissed one of your friends?
Guilty

3. Danced on a table in a bar?
Innocent

4. Ever told a lie?
Guilty

5. Had feelings for someone whom you can't have?
Guilty

6. Ever kissed someone of the same sex?
Guilty

7. Kissed a picture?
Innocent

8. Slept in until 5 PM
Innocent

9. Fallen asleep at work/school?
Guilty

10. Held a snake?
Guilty

11. Been suspended from school?
Innocent

12. Worked at a fast food chain/restaurant?
Innocent

13. Stolen something?
Guilty

14. Been fired from a job?
Innocent

15. Done something you regret?
Guilty

16. Laughed until something you were drinking came out of your nose?
Innocent

17. Caught a snowflake on your tongue?
Guilty

18. Kissed in the rain?
Guilty

19. Sat on a roof top?
Guilty

20. Kissed someone you shouldn't?
Guilty

21. Sang in the shower?
Guilty

22. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?
Guilty

23. Shaved your head?
Innocent

24. Slept naked?
Innocent

25. Had a boxing membership?
Innocent

26. Made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
Guilty

27. Been in a band?
Innocent

28. Shot a gun?
Innocent

29. Donated Blood?
Innocent (Though I'd love to)

30. Eaten alligator meat?
Innocent

31. Eaten cheesecake?
Guilty

32. Still love someone you shouldn't?
Innocent

33. Have/had a tattoo?
Innocent (How can some "have had" a tattoo?)

34. Liked someone, but will never tell who?
Innocent

35. Been too honest?
Guilty

36. Ruined a surprise?
Guilty
 
37. Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated that you can't walk afterwards?
Innocent

38. Erased someone in your friends list?
Guilty

39. Dressed in a woman's clothes (if you're a guy) or man's clothes (if you're a girl)?
Guilty

40. Joined a pageant?
Innocent

41. Been told that you're handsome or beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said?
Guilty

42. Still have communication w/ your ex?
Guilty

43. Cheated on someone?
Innocent

44. Get totally drunk one night and you have an important exam tomorrow morning?
Innocent

45. A total stranger treated you by paying your fare?
Innocent

46. Get totally angry that you cried so hard?
Guilty

47. Tried to stay away from someone for their own good?
Innocent

48. Thought about suicide?
Guilty

49. Thought about murder?
Guilty

50. How about Mass Murder?
Guilty

51. RODE IN A STRANGER'S VEHICLE?
Guilty

52. Stalked someone?
Innocent

53. Had a girlfriend/boyfriend
Guilty
  • Mood: Neutral
Self harm survey

*POTENTIAL TRIGGER WARNING. DO NOT READ IF YOU'RE TRIGGERED BY SELF HARM OR THE LIKE*

1. How old were you when you started self-harming?

[] Younger than 4 
[] 4-5 
[] 6-7
[] 8-9
[] 10-11 
[]12-13
[x] 14-15
[] 15-16
[] 16-17
[] 18-19
[] 20-21
[] Older than 21

2. How often do you self-harm?
[X] Depending on what mood I’ve been in…
[] More than once a day
[x] Once a day (Used to)
[x] Several times a week (Used to)
[] Once a week
[] Two or more times a month
[x] Once a month (ABOUT give or take a bit)
[] Several times in a year
[] Once a year
[] I have stopped
[] I am trying to stop

3. What method of self-harm do/did you primarily use?
[]Cutting
[] Burning
[x] Hair-pulling
[] Scratching
[] Interference with the healing of wounds
[x] Hitting or bruising
[] Bone breaking
[x] Cutting and Scratching
[x] Cutting and Burning
[x] Hitting Head against walls
[] Binging
[] Purging
[] Starving
[x] Biting
[] Rubber band slaps

4. If You Self Harm What Sexual Orientation Are You?
[] Straight Male
[] Straight Female
[] Bisexual Male
[x] Bisexual Female
[] Asexual female
[] Asexual male
[] Homosexual Male
[] Homosexual Female
[] Transgender Male
[] Transgender Female
[] Questioning Male
[] Questioning Female
[] Pansexual Male
[] Pansexual Female
[] Prefer not to answer
[] Demisexual Female

5. Which Of These, If Any, Are Something You Struggle With Along With Self-harm? (Mind you I’ve never been diagnosed with anything)
[] Anorexia
[] Bulimia
[] Anorexia and Bulimia
[] EDNOS
[x] Suicidal ideation
[] Depression
[x] Anxiety (General)
[x] Social Anxiety
[x] Bipolar disorder
[x] Psychosis (includes schizophrenia)
[x] Dissociation (mild)
[] DID (Dissociative Identity Disorder, also called Multiple Personality Disorder)
[] OCD
[] Learning Disabilities
[] None of the Above

6. Do You Think That You (as An Individual) Need Professional Help To Stop Self-harming?
[] Yes, The Only Way I Could Stop Is With Professional Help
[] No, I Have Stopped On My Own
[] No, I Have Stopped On My Own Though I Still Struggle Often And Sometimes Mess Up
[] I Have No Desire To Stop And Therefore Don’t Need Professional Help
[] Yes, I Have Stopped With Professional Help
[] I don’t think I could ever stop without Professional help
[] Prefer not to answer
[x] I don’t know (Honestly I don't like talking about it and I don't think I need help :hmm: )

7. Are You Trying To Stop Self Harming?
[] No, And I Don’t Want To Stop.
[] No, But I Would Like To Be Able To Stop
[] yes, but I don’t really want to stop
[] Yes, But I Am Not Doing Very Well
[] I Have Stopped But I Still Mess Up
[] Every Once In A While
[] I Am Completely Self Harm free
[x] No real effort or opinion either way

8. Does Anyone Know About Your Self Harm?
[] No. No One Knows
[x] Some People May Have A Vague Idea Of Something
[] Yes, But Only My Closest Friend(s)
[] Yes. But Only Some Of My Family Member(s)
[x] Yes, Some Friend(s) and Family
[] Yes, All (or Most Of) My Friends Know 
[] Yes, All (or Most Of) My Family Know
[] Yes, People that see my scars/cuts
[] Just a couple of people I trust
[x] Yes, My Therapist, Psychiatrist, etc.

9. How many years have you been self-harming?
[] 1 or less years
[] 2 years
[x] 3 years (Almost 4)
[] 4 years
[] 5 years
[] 6 years
[] 7 years
[] 8 years
[] 9 years
[] 10 or more years

10. If You Self-harm, Were You Abused Or Neglected (either As A Child Or Later In Life)?
[x] No
[] Yes, I Was Emotionally Abused
[] Yes, I Was Physically Abused
[] Yes, I Was Sexually Abused
[] Yes, I Was Emotionally And Physically Abused
[] Yes, I Was Physically And Sexually Abused
[] Yes, I Was Sexually And Emotionally Abused
[]Yes, I Was Emotionally, Physically And Sexually Abused
[] Yes, I Was Neglected
[] Yes, I Was Neglected As Well As Being Abused
[] Prefer not to answer

11. Would you label yourself as emo?
[] Yes
[x] No
[] I guess..?

12. Do others label you as emo?
[] Yes
[x] No
[] Some People
[x] I don’t know

13.What would others label you as? (chose all that apply) Please select all that apply.
[] Prep
[] Goth
[] Emo
[] Punk
[] Nerd
[] Hipster
[] Pothead
[] Poser
[] Skater
[] Druggie
[] Normal
[x] I don’t know
[x] I don’t believe in labels (I don't really care tbh)

14. What is your reaction when you see other people’s self-harm scars/cuts/marks? (choose all that apply)
[x] I want to get to know them
[x] I wonder what they went through to feel that was a way out
[] I want to get as far as possible from them so no one will find out about my own self-harm
[] I will acknowledge them as someone who shares something in common with me
[] I would never even acknowledge them
[x] What happened for them to start cutting
[] Fear
[x] Interest
[x] Sadness
[] Happiness
[x] Don’t really care
[x] No reaction
[] Surprise
[] Relief
[] Jealousy
[] Upset that nobody else cuts as bad as me
[x] Happy that nobody else cuts as bad as me
  • Mood: Hungry

Normal Deviant:

[x] You post deviants every few weeks

[x] You have more then 50 watchers (I think?)

[x] You've been on Deviantart for longer than a year

[x] You have friends from Deviantart

[ ] You have drawn Fanart

[x] You've improved a lot since you've joined. 

[ ] You've never had more than one account for being banned 

[x] You check DA daily

Score: 6


Cutie:

[ ] You make normal words sound really cute (what does this even mean??) 

[ ] You draw a lot of animals and anything cute

[ ] You'd rather draw cartoons than Anime. (I'd rather draw neither excuse you)

[x] Furries freak you out         

[x] You use a lot of emoticons

[ ] Your favorite DA emote is :3

[ ] Most of the animals you draw are multi-colored

[ ] You use faces like >w< and 0w0 a lot

Score: 2


Furry:

[ ] You have a fursona

[ ] Your fursona is a lot like you in many ways 

[ ] You love being called a furry 

[ ] You are proud to be a furry 

[ ] You understand the term yiff  

[ ] You would consider your fursona yiffy 

[ ] You are in the furry fandom. 

[ ] Your fursona has a "mate"  

Score: 0 (Thanks Jesus)


Oldie:

[x] You have been on DA for longer than 4 years 

[x] You knew how the old layout was

[ ] Some of your favorite artist no longer use DA 

[ ] You're older than 20

[ ] You take DA really seriously

[ ] You are popular

[ ] You have drawn more than 2,000 pictures 

[x] Your art style has changed a lot since you have joined 

Score: 3


Pro:

[ ]You are a Beta Tester 

[ ] You use Sai 

[ ] You are a pro at shading 

[x] Drawing hair or fur is no big deal to you (Ehhh)

[x] You own a tablet 

[x] takes you longer than 1 hour to draw a drawing 

[ ] Drawing is one of your favorite hobbies

[ ] You love to draw (Liking to draw doesn't make you a pro wtf)

Score: 3


DA Famous:

[ ] You have more than 500 watchers

[ ] You have gotten more then 10 pieces of fan art

[ ] You have more than 15,000 page views 

[ ] You get more than 10 comments on all of your art

[ ] People consider you an Inspiration 

[ ] Fans are always wanting to be your friend 

[ ] People have told you that you are their idol  

[ ] You get commissions A LOT  

Score: 0


Under aged:

[ ] You use MS paint to draw 

[ ] You mostly use shapes in MS paint instead of actually drawing 

[ ] You're younger than 10 

[ ] You use faces like " (Smile) (Smile)" and " (Sad) (Sad)"

[ ] You have a lot of people on your block list 

[ ] You use a lot of bases   

[ ] You don't know what Guide-lines are 

[ ] You change words a lot because you don't know how to spell them

Score: 0


DA Addict:

[ ] You post pictures daily

[ ] You are always checking your friends list to see who you could talk to

[x] You have more than 1,000 favorites

[x] You check DA daily

[ ] DA is your favorite site 

[ ] You're on everyone's visitor list 

[ ] You read the terms for fun

[x] You sometimes write journals
Score: 3


Hipster:

[ ] Your OC/Fursona is a wolf 

[ ] Most of your pictures are based off of music 

[ ] You love to draw people kissing

[ ] You're an expert at wolf anatomy 

[x] You love techno music 

[ ] You love creepy pasta 

[ ] You want to marry slender man

[ ] You refer to him as "Slendy" 

Score: 1 (Again this isn't even congruent w/ the classic hipster what the actual fuck)

  • Mood: Lazy
Your Loli/Shota side:
[X] You tilt your head when you’re confused. 
[x] You love sweets and cute things.
[ ] You are often confused and lost in conversations with your friends.
[ ] You blush simply thinking of sexual things.
[x] People often call you cute. 
[x] You care a lot about your friends. 
[x] You embarrass yourself a lot with silly question or statements. 
[x] You like bright, soft colors.
[ ] You enjoy listening to cute, sweet, gentle songs.
[ ] You add things to the end of your friend’s names (such as “-chan” or “-y”, i.e. Hime = Himey.) 
[x] People often say “aww” when you’ve done something clumsy/silly. (Nathan does lol :blush:)
[ ] You like anime/movies about romance, love and friendship. 
Total: 6

Your Tsundere side:
[X] You come off as tough and confident on the outside, when you are actually soft and emotional on the inside. 
[X] You often hide your true feelings for someone.
[ ] You are caring but deny it when someone tells it to you. 
[X] You are protective.
[x] When someone bugs you, you tell them right away strongly, but are still on the inside worried that you’ve hurt them. (Sometimes) 
[X] You are easily embarrassed.
[X] Compliments make you feel awkward and you always deny them. 
[x] You tease and bully the one you love to hide your feelings. 
[X] You can be violent at times. 
[ ] You may hurt people a lot, but regret it right away.
[ ] When people say Thank You, you often reply by saying it was for yourself
[x] You never cry in front of others.
Total: 9

Your Yandere side:
[X] You are often loving, caring, sweet - until someone upsets you badly. 
[ ] When angry, you’re normally hide it until the time for revenge is right. 
[X] You can at times, be obsessive.
[x] People have said you are “two-faced”.
[X] People tell you you’re nice, but can be creepy at times. (They haven't said this to me but let's be real I'm probably a lil creepy)
[X] You scare the crap out of your friends when you get upset. 
[ ] People find it weird to see you anything other than gentle and smiling.
[ ] When you’re upset, sometimes you still smile, even when saying something harsh.
[X] You can get very violent.
[ ] You love to help people, but often love to help yourself more.
[x] You like slow, sweet, but twisted songs. (I'm hesitant to put a check in the box because yes, I do, but that description sounds lame a stupid)
[ ] You like colors like dark blue or light red. (Pink. The word you are looking for is pink.)
Total: 7

Your Kuudere side:
[x] You don’t show your emotions to others.
[X] You hide your true feelings. 
[X] When you become close to someone, you slowly open up.
[ ] Although you don’t show it, you are easily made happy. 
[ ] You care for others a lot, still you don’t show it.
[ ] People think you are mysterious. 
[X] You can be shy.
[ ] You aren't very loud, rather silent.
[x] You know who to trust and who not to.
[x] You choose your friends wisely.
[ ] You like simple colors, like light purple or white.
[x] You are rather mature. 
Total: 7

Your Dandere side:
[X] You are a shy person.
[ ] You are quiet and don’t speak up for yourself.
[ ] You look down instead of straight forwards when walking.
[ ] You sometimes go to extreme levels just to get out of public speaking.
[x] You have stage fright.  
[X] You are stoic and not very open.
[ ] You hide yourself with your hair at times. 
[ ] Your face starts boiling when speaking with others.
[ ] You speak very quietly in case you say something silly or you sound weird.
[x] You are afraid of meeting new people. 
[x] You are a hard worker.
[x] You do not have as many friendships as others, but those you do have, you cherish very much.
Total: 6
  • Mood: High
"I'm a little bit shy, a bit strange and a little bit manic"

Ok, so as some of you know (I think I made a post about it), I went and got a psychiatric evaluation. I got the results back right before christmas, but there were a couple people I wanted to tell face to face before I made a post about it. I highly doubt anyone really cares, or that any of you find it important/interesting, but I still want to make a statement.

So the resulting diagnoses are as follows: Bipolar II with psychotic and mixed features (I will explain what all of this means in a minute), as well as social anxiety disorder (WOA BIG SHOCK THERE HAHA NOT)

"But Jenna isn't bipolar just mood swings? Isn't that just where you're happy then sad then angry really fast?!"

NO IT IS NOT SHUT THE FUCK UP.
Bipolar disorders are in no way just mood swings. Everyone has mood swings, especially as teenagers because your hormones pretty much shit themselves due to puberty. No, bipolar disorder is a disorder that causes people to cycle from extreme highs (called mania or hypomania) to extreme lows (called depression). This usually happens over a span of weeks. A person might remain manic for a month or two, then cycle down into depression, then maybe go up to normal emotional range. But the point is that this process takes time. It's not "one minute I'm happy the next I'm sad". That's just being moody. The cycles and moods of a bipolar person affect their life and their ability to function within different areas of their lives; being "moody" doesn't impair a person's ability to function. While most people know what depression is, many have no clue what mania is. These are the symptoms of mania:
  • Euphoria
  • Inflated self esteem
  • Poor judgement
  • Rapid speech
  • Aggressive behavior
  • Irritability
  • Increased physical activity
  • Recklessness/risky behavior
  • Increased goal-oriented activity 
  • Increased sex drive
  • Decreased need for sleep (like sleeping only a couple hours and being at full functioning)
  • Easily distracted
  • In some extreme cases, psychosis (break from reality)
I have bipolar II, which means I never get up to full mania. I experience hypomania, which is a lesser form of mania. This means it has less of an impact on my ability to function, and it tends to last a lot shorter than mania. This does not mean bipolar II is less severe than bipolar I (bipolar I experiences full blown mania). Each version blows dick and is no fun to have. Also, bipolar II is often more chronic (means it's harder to "cure"; you're pretty much stuck with it for life), whereas bipolar I often goes into remission with the right treatment regiment. People with bipolar II are also more prone to rapid cycling (I am), and they spend far less time in a "normal" mood range than people with bipolar I.  

"Ok cool, I think I get bipolar disorder now. But what the fuck is psychosis?"

Psychosis is basically the term used for when a person can no longer tell what is real from what is not. A person who's psychotic will experience delusions (fixed, false beliefs that cannot be changed regardless of evidence proving otherwise), hallucinations (false sensory experiences), and disorganized thinking and speech. I have experienced ALL of these. My psychosis is caused by my moods; when I am hypomanic, I'm probably psychotic. When I am depressed, I am probably psychotic. My delusions tend to include thinking people can read my mind, hear what I'm thinking, SEE what I'm thinking, or that everyone is talking badly about me and is out to ruin my life. As for hallucinations, I've hallucinated in all 5 of my senses: I've heard things, seen things, smelled things, tasted things, and felt things that were not there. I've also had disorganized thinking, which usually comes along with hypomania (it's never a problem when I'm depressed). Remember that really fucking weird journal I wrote a while back? Yeah, that's disorganized thinking. So fun.

"But wait, aren't psychotic people like, really dangerous?"

FUCK NO. People with psychosis (such as people with schizophrenia) are far more likely to be a danger to themselves than to other people. Also they are more prone to being abused and assaulted than being the ones abusing. It's a myth that all psychotic people are homicidal maniacs; most of them are terrified and alone.

"And now what the heck are "mixed features"?"

Mixed features basically means I experience mixed episodes as well as depressive and hypomanic episodes. Mixed episodes are basically hypomania and depression at the same time. Those episodes are the most dangerous because mixed people tend to have high energy and low mood, so suicide is very common during a mixed episode. I hate these the most. You feel like shit, you're super psychotic, and your brain won't stop going and going and going. Not fun at all.

"Isn't social anxiety just being shy?"

NOOOOOO OMG SHUT THE FUCK UP NO IT'S NOT. Social anxiety pretty much makes making friends impossible because you're constantly analyzing their words, looking for deeper meaning. You think everyone hates you, that everyone is talking about you or things you're weird and unpleasant. Big crowds can be so upsetting that you're on the brink of a panic attack. You don't know how to speak to anyone, ever. It sucks and it's so isolating because you're screaming "I don't want to be alone!!" and at the same time it's like "No leave me alone I can't deal with people holy crap."

"Ok so you have all this shit going on. What are you going to do? How do you treat this?"

I get put on *insert sparkles and fireworks* MOOD STABILIZERS *jazz hands*. I'm not medicated yet so I am currently enjoying cycling between mild hypomania and normal functioning. Mood stabilizers are basically going to stop me from cycling and prevent my disorder from escalating to full blown mania. They have all sorts of nasty side affects, like massive weight gain, memory loss, dry mouth, and diarrhea (eww). I've been trying to narrow down the ones that are relatively OK in terms of side affects: so far I have Topamax (could make me rage out though), Lamictal (could give me a lethal rash), and Saphris (might shut down my ability to produce white blood cells). As you can see, medications for people with bipolar disorder and schizophrenia are pretty unpleasant, and sometimes the side affects are worse than the illness itself. This is partly due to lack of research for newer, better medications (I mean shit how many fucking antidepressants do we NEED UGH) and the stigma surrounding such illnesses. These illnesses are more obvious than depression or anxiety, and they're a lot less "glamorous". That boy will totally cure Sally of her depression, but he'd be Jesus if he could cure Teresa of her paranoid delusions. Bipolar disorder just isn't "pretty enough" to talk about, or research about, so it's a bit misunderstood. This disorder is not romantic; it's not quirky, it's not beautiful, it's not cool. Fuck you if you pretend to be bipolar, or say "I'm so bipolar" when you actually mean moody. 

So yeah, that's my diagnosis. If you have any questions PLEASE ASK ME.

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BloodshotInk Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2014
Thanks for the fave 
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ithaswhatitisnt Featured By Owner May 15, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you for the fave(s)! :tighthug: 
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EcoKing13 Featured By Owner Feb 21, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Hey I got a date for the Writers Guild event. It's on March 11th, around 3:30. You think you can make it?
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Dayglo14 Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
3:30? And it's at your school?
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EcoKing13 Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Yep
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Dayglo14 Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
Fuck idk if I can go... My school lets out at 3:15... If I went I'd probably be late to it
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moulinrougegirl77 Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2014
happy birthday
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Dayglo14 Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
Thanks!
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moulinrougegirl77 Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2014
np
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17BloodWolf Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Happy birthday! (I still need to finish your present -_-)
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