Gonna distract myself from the awful weight I've somehow swallowed in my sleep.
Bisexual/polysexual. I can't go as far to say Pansexual because I'm just not COMPLETELY gender-blind but I'm like pretty fucking close.
2) If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?
My soulmate, so I could know who it was for sure.
3) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.
It's some cooking book why bother?
4) What do you think about most?
My mental health, or just psychology in general. It pretty much has consumed my whole fucking life, which is just so fun *sarcasm*
5) What does your latest text message from someone else say?
"It's stupid" from Jenny (while talking about psych hospitals)
6) Do you sleep with or without clothes on?
With. Even if it's just undies, I need SOME article of clothing on.
7) What's your strangest talent?
Getting people to hate me without them ever having to speak to me
8) Girls…. (finish the sentence); Boys…. (finish the sentence)
Girls and their curls and their gourmet vomit; Boys and their toys and their six-inch rockets
Guess this song and I love you forever X3
I really don't care at all.
9) Ever had a poem or song written about you?
Maybe? I think so? Not sure
10) When is the last time you played the air guitar?
11) Do you have any strange phobias?
Plastic park slides, trampolines; anything that can create static, really
12) Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?
13) What's your religion?
NOTHING FUCK RELIGION
14) If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?
Walking around or riding my bike
15) Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?
Behind it. I look awful in photos
16) Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?
Probably The Story So Far, but I also really like Brand New, Bring Me The Horizon, and Of Mice & Men
17) What was the last lie you told?
"Fine" when asked how I was
18) Do you believe in karma?
Yes and no
19) What does your URL mean?
My tumblr URL? Homicidal-not-suicidal; means I don't want to kill myself, I want to kill other people (I made it when I was manic/psychotic shush)
20) What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?
Weakness: Short temper and short patience with idiots
21) Who is your celebrity crush?
EWWWWWW ahahahahaha don't get those nope
22) Have you ever gone skinny dipping?
When I was like 6 so no
23) How do you vent your anger?
Complaining, writing, crying, SH
24) Do you have a collection of anything?
25) Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?
Neither... But maybe video chat more
26) Are you happy with the person you've become?
27) What's a sound you hate; sound you love?
Hate: Ignorance, whining, fork scraping a plate, charcoal or chalk squeeking
Love: Nathan's voice, kitten meows
28) What's your biggest "what if"?
"What if we never find out what's wrong with me; what if I never get my answers?"
29) Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?
YES my house is haunted AF ugh fucking Genevieve and that shitting cat. And yes, I believe in aliens to. It's just stupid and closed minded to think that we can be the only intelligent beings in the universe (the human race is an arrogant one, I've noticed)
30) Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.
31) Smell the air. What do you smell?
Nothing? Smells like air
32) What's the worst place you have ever been to?
This restaurant thing when I was 9. It had the worst vibes and I got such an awful feeling there like there were bad things living in there that were going to steal my parents and turn them into animals or something idk it was horrible
33) Choose East Coast or West Coast?
34) Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?
Opposite gender? Well, seeing as there are infinite types of genders, I can't say. But if you meant to say opposite SEX, I guess maybe Parker Canon? Idk, I don't really pay much attention.
35) To you, what is the meaning of life?
36) Define Art.
Art is any form of self expression that seeks to portray a deeper message through this expression.
37) Do you believe in luck?
38) What's the weather like right now?
39) What time is it?
40) Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?
41) What was the last book you read?
Cutting; it's a book about self harm that I'm slowly finding more and more offensive
42) Do you like the smell of gasoline?
43) Do you have any nicknames?
Jen KINDA I don't really have nicknames Nathan calls me cutie a lot though
44) What was the last movie you saw?
45) What's the worst injury you've ever had?
I really don't know
46) Have you ever caught a butterfly?
Yes! Well, I guess the butterfly caught me. It just landed on me randomly.
47) Do you have any obsessions right now?
Psychology; that's about it
48) What's your sexual orientation?
REPEAT QUESTION FUCK YOU
49) Ever had a rumor spread about you?
SOOO many all thanks to fucking Nic and probably Michele and maybe some other people
50) Do you believe in magic?
Kinda, but in a different way that classic magic
51) Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?
Yes, I don't see anything wrong with it either.
52) What is your astrological sign?
53) Do you save money or spend it?
Both. I hate spending money, I feel guilty
54) What's the last thing you purchased?
Music on iTunes; or bath bombs from LUSH
55) Love or lust?
56) In a relationship?
57) How many relationships have you had?
Two or three
58) Can you touch your nose with your tongue?
59) Where were you yesterday?
School and a football game
60) Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?
61) Are you wearing socks right now?
Yes! And shoes
62) What's your favorite animal?
Snakes, cats, orcas
63) What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?
Nothing; no one likes me.
64) Where is your best friend?
I don't know. The girl is probably in her room, but idk where the boy is.
65) Spit or swallow?
66) What is your heritage?
Irish, German, English, Danish, and Czechoslovakian (I come from gypsies
67) What were you doing last night at 12 AM?
Working I think
68) What do you think is Satan's last name?
70) Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?
Ehhhh I guess
71) You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?
Get the dog AND be on time for work
72) You are at the doctor's office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?
A) Yes??? Like I kinda have to, I'm a minor
B) Spend it with friends
C) Maybe? I'm not sure. It really depends on where I am in life. I'm sure everyone's a little afraid.
73) You can only have one of these things; trust or love.
Trust, because out of trust can come love.
74) What's a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?
Ehhhhh not sure? Sorry it's hard to think of things that make me happy right now
75) What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA NOT HAPPENING
76) In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?
Trust, respect, honesty, understanding, acceptance, love, loyalty. When I say acceptance, I mean that both partners accept the faults of their partners and don't expect them to be perfect all the time.
77) How can I win your heart?
Be individual (seriously anyone who's in the "in" crowd or tries to fit in is not someone I want to be with), being humorous (usually in a sarcastic or witty way), be kind, understanding, open minded. A good listener; rational, reasonable.
78) Can insanity bring on more creativity?
I'm going to tentatively say yes. Certain mental illnesses (like mania) can bring on higher creativity. HOWEVER, I feel like this is getting a little close to trivializing mental illnesses. While they might make you more creative at times; they also suck dick.
79) What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?
Taking a chance on my boyfriend
80) What size shoes do you wear?
Usually like a 6.5 or a 7, I think. Small feet
81) What would you want to be written on your tombstone?
"Everything Was Beautiful and Nothing Hurt" I kinda like it. Or something else, I really don't know. Maybe I'll just have them cremate me.
82) What is your favorite word?
I don't have one????
83) Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart
84) What is a saying you say a lot?
85) What's the last song you listened to?
"Lost Without You" by Blink-182
86) Basic question; what's your favorite color/colors?
Black, teal, bright blue, clay rose, lavender, I like kinda muted or subdued colors
87) What is your current desktop background?
Same as it's been forever
88) If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?
HAHAHA shit I have to think about that for a second... Maybe Michele? Or Nic, oooh Nic would be good.
89) What would be a question you'd be afraid to tell the truth on?
"Do you want to get better? Do you want to change?"
90) One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren't really doing anything, they're just standing around your bed. What do you do?
Freak out? Because yeah they aren't doing anything but why the FUCK are there mummies in my room?!??
91) You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what's even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?
Psychic powers in general, like mind reading and moving shit with my mind
92) You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?
There was this time I was at Nathan's, when we first started dating. It lasted like 3 hours, but we were just lying there together. Not kissing or making out, just staring at each other and talking and smiling and he was saying the sweetest things to me. It was so tender... It's probably the happiest moment of my life. Just being there with him, so peacefully.
93) You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?
Sex with Jenny. I'm not joking. It's traumatized me because 95% of the time we did something, she forced me into it. It makes being intimate really hard now. I feel filthy and disgusting.
94) You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?
Ehhh maybe Parker Canon
I don't really care all that much.
95) You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?
96) Do you have any relatives in jail?
Not that I know of.
97) Have you ever thrown up in the car?
98) Ever been on a plane?
Yes, and I've slowly disliked them more and more. They're really dirty...
99) If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say?
"Stop looking at me!"